a worrying thought

Dear Mummy

i received some exam results today. i passed both of them. i've been writing a bit too, trying to make my story make sense to the rest of this crazy world.

i miss gavin, mum. i miss him so much. what if he was the love of my life and i never knew? what if he is everything i want and i never get? what if i wake up one day and realise i dont just love and adore him, but that im in love with him? what if its not enough? right now i just miss my best friend and the comfort he brings me when my life seems empty and my path seems overgrown.

shit - i hope i never wake up in love with him. ew.

heather xoxoxox