sugar rush

Dear Mummy

I had another uneventful day. i got up late and watched two seasons of sugar rush. it's about a girl who has a massive crush on her best friend who is just generally a slut who sleeps around and uses her for selfish means. it's a parody of my life i swear. it just has a lot more sex in it than in mine. a lot of people say that girls will inevitably turn out like their mothers, so i gotta know - did you ever like girls. cos news flash, you've got a gay daughter and dad's not too happy with it, and it makes me wonder ur reaction. i have depression, were you ever depressed. the first guy i loved played the drums - did yours. the second i still adore and is my very best friend, and the third rides horses and is like a drug to me. i know hes doing me no good, but i cant let him go. then of course i gave up on men altogether. i saw it coming, i saw it coming for about five years but thought it might go away. and then i fell in love with a girl who stepped into my life and became my best friend and then just at the point i thought...well...she went to uni and came back straight. bloody straight. maybe she always had been, maybe i just didnt want to see it. this is a ramble about me and my sexually frustrated life. but i tell you, it was a miracle i didnt make a pass at her over christmas, but next time i see her im gonna give it everything ive got, cos heaven knows i have nothing else to lose, when she already has my heart


Heather xoxoxoxoxox