I had a session of peapodo training today. it's a brand new initiative that is being introduced into nurseries in this area. it was like a beanstalk which 7 large coloured peas grew of off. each of these pea pods contained a different resource which you could use with the children.
- 3 mp3 players
- 5 scented ink pads
- 7 blindfolds
- 7 finger torches
- 1 superhero cape
- 2 large blank dice
- 7 magic wands
so i was sitting there full of joy! there are so many things i want to do with that, and the manual that comes with it is just bursting with activities. anyway my enthusiasm must have shown because now i'm the peapodo coordinator. great move heather.
anyway...on the subject of heartbreak, my soul died just a little bit more on two different occasions yesterday. the first was when i realised that in taking a course in early education and childcare i wasnt just getting an education or setting myself up for a decent job, i was assigning myself a career. i dont want a career, i just want to write a good book and earn enough money that i can afford to do nothing but write for the rest of my life. what if i cant do this? what if i'm not cut out to be a childcare worker...what if i never achieve my dreams?
the second, more soul destroying point was when i talked to stuart yesterday. stuart was a friend i had in high school. he was, for a while, my best friend ever. i remember so much about him and all the stupid things we did - i even wrote a novel all about it. well it turns out he cant remember any of it. everything that is so essential to my life at that time means nothing to him. a little bit of me died last night, knowing that two people can share an experience and come out of it in two completely different ways, with two completely different views as to its importance and life changing ability. i think i feel sorry for him, maybe not all those memories and experiences were positive ones, but without a doubt they helped to contribute to making me the person i am today. and i'm a stronger and better person for it, and its disappointing to think he may have missed out on that.
love you
Heather xoxoxoxoxox
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