Finally....

Dear Mummy,

I am so sorry i have not written to you recently - I have been in full panic over exams and placement folders and such stuff. I hope you're okay and enjoying an afterlife of luxury.

So anyway, that's all the exams over i hope - unless of course I fail and have to resit tomorrow, but to be honest I am not planning that!

I am going home over the holidays - I can't wait. I am taking Fiona with me as well so I will have fun being a tourist in my own county for a while. We are taking a coach down there, it'll be about 14 hours or something equally stupid. We have lots of games planned though so we shouldn't go too crazy. Of course we may be fed up of each other by the end of it but I hope not.

I had a lovely birthday, i was spoilt rotten with clothes and money so am a happy girl.

I have also applied for accommodation at the college next year which should be an experience. I can cope with the independence - it's sharing cooking facilities that is going to kill me! You should have seen the state of this place when they showed me round: I'm going to go mad! Daddy says he will bring me back up instead of the bus as i will need to take stuff like crockery with me. I can't wait if I'm honest. I'm going mad in here. I love my cousins but it has to be detrimental to my emotional heath living with my uncle. He bangs on about making an effort and looking good etc. then he goes out of his way to lower my self esteem and make me feel like a fucking freak. So I really am ready to leave.

I don't know what I am going to do about Stuart this summer. I hope we can meet up and hang out but I think it will feel odd and other worldly - part of me will always adore him no matter what and I know he gives very little thought to me. We will have to see what happens - I will once again leave it in the hands of Fate - I just pray she is nice to me.

I am looking forward to seeing Gavin this holiday, life always seems so much better and more complete when he is around. He really is a blessing to me and anyone lucky enough to have him in their life.

Ruthie is in the middle of her A-Levels at the moment - she has psychology today. I think she is finding it much harder than she expected. But she's bright and I'm sure will be okay, if she just stops panicking for a second that is :)

Anyways - I'm gonna go and maybe do some writing or reading or summit. I wrote poems on Saturday for the first time in ages, it felt good.

Love you lots and lots

Heather xoxoxoxoxoxox